29 June 2006

How to deal?

How do you deal when your friend loses all your respect for her. Suddenly she has become this foolish girl whom you didn't think for a moment she would be. How do you deal when you find it impossible to recouncil her image now as one whom you've known years ago - one whom you love and respect for her strengh and maturity. How do you deal when you wanna scold her for her stupidity, yet you want to be there for her in her troubles and help her make the right decisions. How should I deal?

Furthermore...how do you deal when the person you confide to regarding this argues with you on nitty gritty things that does not matter at all, that when all you want is a comfort and a person to bounce your emotions with started to pick on unecessary things and that moment of confiding ends with cold, steely atmosphere.

How should I deal?

Perhaps I should have prayed before going to a human channel to discuss this whole issue. I know I have not prayed enough for her when it was still salvagable. When God asks us Christians to be shining light and a salt of the world, to be the bearer of righteosness, I have failed in my duty towards her as a friend who is a Christian. I have not spoken to her rightly and timely due to my own prejudice and displeasure. I have not upheld the truth with her.

How to deal with all these?

The one and only most effective channel - prayer. Even though I may not find the answers now, God will show me His will someday.

21 June 2006

DVBS 2006

Haha! Thank the Lord! DVBS (Daily Vacation Bible Study) ended last week. Finally God saw it through and allowed it to happen.

We (Felicia and myself) were at first rather discouraged because of the drastic lack of helpers. Many youths have started working or gone to the army and hence left us with little helpers. Even Felicia herself is juggling work and studies. The only one truely free in me. Moreoever, this year's DVBS skit requires alot of people, and I could only put poeple in and pray that they can make it on that day. There's was no confirmation till that week itself. Even for lead actor Eliel who acted as Noah. Haha! But thank God He allowed the skit to be acted out smoothly (well, minus the usual lack of prac errors...).

Preparations were also pretty last minute. Till the 2nd last week, many things like teachers, art and craft, food, helpers on that day, were still unconfirmed. But thanks be to God He saw us through.

The most trying, however, is not the resources, it's the number of kids who will turn up on that day. This year, Kai Jing and Hui Ning couldn't come. The core group of evangelism children at block 195, many couldn't turn up either. Evangelism for DVBS was done exactly a week before, leaving us with little areas covered.

But amidst all these worries, God had His plan. I strongly believe that by limiting us, God has compelled us to pray ever more for this work. How foolish we would have been if we were to find ourselves full of helpers, plenty of time for preparation, and plenty of children coming! We would not have prayed and commit this work to the Lord as much as we did. Humans are naturally presumptious. (I shall confess that after DVBS is over, I've slackened in prayer...tsk tsk tsk...Carmen you are so irritating...)

Finally, on that day, food was well prepared, no glitches. Lessons were taught proper. Skit acted out smoothly. Helpers a-plenty. Most imporatantly, there were children. Besides our usual children from 195 and church children, there was Malcom and Matthias, Rachel and Michelle, Melody who came despite Rumin not coming, and importantly, Sandy who comes from non-believing home. Heat-warmingly, they all raised their hands when Felicia asked if they believe in Jesus. Perhaps this is just a enthusiasm or a euphoria. I remember when I first went to DVBS I also did this, to say I believe even though the real love and faith came after a few years. Nevertheless, I hope that this is just a beginning for their thirst of knowledge for the Word of God.

I have a special attachment to the ministry of the DVBS. Long ago, at Pri 5, Frederick brought me to the DVBS of this same church. Tabitha also brought me to the DVBS of Pasir Panjang Christ Church. How thankful that it was through all these that the gospel was revealed to me, and now I'm saved!!!!!! I believe that no matter how little children may be, DVBS is a means for them to accumulate little bits of knowledge of the gospel until the time come, and if God willing, that they should have the full faith in the Lord Jesus Christ. Thank God for DVBS!

In this year's DVBS, I especially like this children hymn, "We've Got a Great Big, Wonderful God". I'm gonna attach the video at the end of this entry of some children singing the 1st part ('cause the camera's vid recording cannot exceed 30 secs....-_-"). I hope I can upload the midi for my background music too!

Here's the lyric:

We've got a great, big, wonderful God,
we've got a great, big, wonderful God.
A God who loves everyone of us,
done so much for all of us,
a great, big, wonderful God!

He will never, never leave us,
He's always standing by -
to lift us up when we stumble -
we are the apple of His eye.

We've got a great, big, wonderful God,
we've got a great, big, wonderful God.
A God who loves everyone of us,
done so much for all of us,
a great, big, wonderful God!



Of course by the word "us" it means repentant sinners and believers. (No, God don't love sinners because He is holy and sin contridicts God's holiness. He loves sinners who repents because Jesus Christ would wash them of their sins and so they would present Christ's holiness to God.)

I love this hymn because even though it's simple in words, it conveys the very love of God towards His children. And, no need for bombastic words, He is truly "GREAT", "BIG", and "WONDERFUL"!

Haha my post is too long... here's the video. Adieu!!


16 June 2006

Well some poeple are just given the talent.

Or maybe he's extra diligent + talent.

While I'm just lazy.

X-P

05 June 2006

04 June 2006

Updates...no particular heading.

Hmmm... nothing specific to update, but I don't want to leave my blog rotting. So here's some random stuff:

1) Well, after MOE Teaching Award rejected me, I now have the freedom to choose my modules and majors. This brings another problem...what should I choose?! I am kind of inclined towards English Language and English Literature, but recently I got this advertisement from NUS regarding the Language Preparation Programme and Student Exchange Programme. If I sign up, I'll have to include a foreign language into my modules and take it up to certain level with certain proficiency each semester. Most importantly, I'll be able to go on student exchange to Europe countries!! It's my dream to go to Europe someday!! And i've always been interested in German. So I'm kind of sitting on the idea. The problem is, what prospects are there and can i still major in English? Plus, leaving Singapore for at least a Sem is rather...well...I'll miss home, and people back home! :..( But then again, this will be the ONLY chance in my entire life (as much as i can foresee) that i can go to Europe with such cheap rate, because i'll be going there as a student in their uni and i can get financial grants!! RARE OPPORTUNITY! Well, let's just see how God leads.

2) I'm in charge of a skit for DVBS again this year. Glad to have this opportunity to serve God and have this burden to force me into prayer (else my prayer life would be stale...). It's harder this year firstly because the story of Noah's Ark is quite big scale to put up. Need alot of people. Secondly, WE LACK PEOPLE! At least, some still cannot confirm whether they can turn up on that day. And also schedules are clashing so rehearsals are very very limited. Forthly, directing people older than me is....-_-". Ah wells. Just thankful for the resources thus far. Better than nothing!! Thank God!! :D

3) It's not easy to handle relationships. Teens drama is really shallow in portraying the nuances of relationships. Even serious dramas are not even close. Anyway, I'm still noob :) . If we want to take relationships seriously, definitely have to pray earnestly about it, if not, it's not easy to sustain. Haha. Not sure whether i'm up to it to handle it or not, but i'm not gonna give up trying and praying about it so easily.

Hmm...anything else in my life now?

OH!

4) I left Swiss, my term there is up. Got many mixed feelings. Don't really feel like drafting them out now though.

That's all I think.

Cheerz!